Dang this blog is old. 2012 and 2011 and 2010.

Happy new year!

1. Venice canals in LA with Jenn Wang.
2. Maggie visited Califoria with Derek and we hung out at DT Disney. I also went to SD!
3. Went to Albuquerque to interview with Intel…
4. and then Houston a few days later to interview with Schlumberger. Traveling alone (gratis) was pretty fun and I didn’t mind it. And then Seattle at the end of April for mom’s birthday. And that’s when I got a job offer from MiaSolĂ©!
5. After accepting my job offer I immediately dyed my hair red and started my final set of LA adventures as a resident. And then took a full-car road trip up to Norcal with Stanley. We stopped by Santa Barbara, Solvang, SLO and Santa Cruz. Oh and I went vegan and gluten free.
6. Apparently I have no pictures from June. I did make another trip down to LA to pick up the rest of my stuff, but I guess I was mostly settling in at work.
7. Family reunion with babies! Also Layla visited me in Cupertino.
8. Went to Six Flags, made a bunch of amazing address stamps and went from vegan to vegetarian! Stanley came up for his birthday and also I hung out with Alan and Tung.
9. Went to LA for Stan’s friend’s (Charissa and Sean) wedding.
10. Made a birthday cake for Rose/Kristen and had boozey game night #1!
11. Uneventfully turned 24, and went to Minnesota to visit Je and Wisconsin to see Heather.
12. Finished Ben’s giant UCLA painting! Drove down to LA to pick up Stan’s snowboard. Stayed at the Nittler cabin in Tahoe for a few days and snowboarded. And finished the year strong with a lazy two weeks of shut-down! :)

It’s been a big year full of big changes and growing up. And I like it!

You mumbled an “I love you” that morning when we woke up together, with the sunlight streaming in from the window with the gray blinds, and when I flabbergastedly said “What?” you pretended like you didn’t say anything at all, and it was so strange, and I don’t know if it’s only in hindsight that I see it so clearly – that what we had was so easy and real, and unpolluted by all these other variables, and the situation was just so, such that we could be ourselves, whoever we wanted to be. I might have found myself that summer, because those were some of the best weeks of my life, and I see now that I’ve migrated towards that set of personality traits, from that time where I didn’t have a worry in the world. Maybe you had chosen to be that someone for me, and now the reason why none of is recognize you is because you are really actually someone else. That’s ok, I will still only remember you as I do. Probably because I don’t have a choice.

This archived footage surfaced because I can’t sleep and I was thinking about my new cardholder wallet that I took from Stanley, and how it doesn’t compare at all to my old EX RUGS & OCK’N’ROLL one, which cost me $50 at that store where Jaemin got her Freitag bag in New York, and there were two of them but I chose that one specifically because it almost said “sex” on it. Ah, the good old days.

It’s been awhile

The following is an e-mail from the past, composed 4 years ago, on February 29, 2008. It is being delivered from the past through FutureMe.org

Dear FutureMe,

It’s leap year today, in the year of 2008. That’d make me a Freshman at UCLA. It’s strange to be writing a letter to myself, but I guess I can just take this as a letter to anonymous. Like a blog, maybe, or a diary entry.

I wonder what I would want to know about myself in the future. Over the summer, I received that letter that we wrote to ourselves in 6th grade with Ms. Stull… the things I put in that letter were pretty lame. Like my favorite song, favorite movie, favorite color. And the friends that I had back in super six. It’s interesting to think that those were the things that I found to be the most important to me. What’s important to me now, though? I guess it’s still people, but it’s an intimidating thought, to imagine what kind of company I’ll still have in four years. I mean, not genres of people, but rather, specific friends I’ve made over the years. People come and go so quickly, it seems, especially in college. Or maybe that’s just my excuse. In four years, my high school friends (namely ISB class of 2008 and Mike Wu) will be in college. And graduating, actually. To me, graduation from college seems like it’ll be a really long time from now. But the senior friends that I have right now say that their college experience went by too quickly. As we get older, I suppose time passes more quickly. Is that something lost, or is it something to be taken advantage of? I hardly remember anything from when I was young (elementary school), but the lessons I’ve learned, and things I’ve experienced in high school are precious to me. Maybe it’s a question of consciousness. It’s not like I knew what was really going on when I was seven years old. On the other hand, I hardly know what’s going around me now. I’m painfully unknowledgeable. And yet, I’m not doing anything about it. I hope I can learn. But that’s all I can hope for.

Yeah, seriously, I don’t know what to write. I got a tattoo a little more than a month ago. I guess what I’d want to hear about the most would be my thoughts on certain decisions I’ve made (and not made). I’ve had too many problems with being fickle and indecisive, but in the end, it just seems like… eh, lost my train of thought. Anyway, my tattoo, of the last character of my Chinese name. When people ask me what it is, I only tell them what it is on the surface. But when I’m answering, I think about why I did it. My name, my identity. It’s something that it’s easy to lose track of. A tattoo is so definite, so defining, that whatever it is just seems to prove a little part of who one is. It’s not just my name, my culture. But the reasons behind the design of it. Not solely the physical design but I guess the mental side of it as well? I’ve always found it hard to describe my conceptual understanding of things. Art. Life. (Maybe those two are equivalent.) But alas, it’s late now, and I’m going to go celebrate leap year. I hope the system doesn’t crash because of the date…

-Jennifer Wang

PS. Dennis wants me to say he’s cool. Well, that’s unfortunate… because putting “Dennis is cool” in here is … lame. Too late, though.

PPS. I hope I’m still friends with Will, Heather, Kristen, Rose, Mike, Kency, Emili, Layla, Dennis, Stacey, Frances, Esther, June, Emma… and everyone else awesome. If not, go get in touch with them again!